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My Fair Fiend

by My Fair Fiend

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    My Fair Fiend self titled debut album, released August 2013. Compact Disc in digipak packaging.
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1.
How do you murder a dream? Wrap your long fingers around its small throat Watch the light fade away While it’s trying to scream Say “I brought you into this world and I will take you out of it!” How you do see the moon And accept that it’s too far away? It’s enough work just climbing the mountains We can’t all be astronauts And the angels in my head say “Baby, just stick to your singing. These tantrums get old” But I want what I can’t have I want what I can’t have I want what I can’t have I’m done How do you silence a song When its one single purpose is just to be heard Can I just let it sing? No No that’s far too risky a thing When the message is such childish blasphemy Truth How do you just accept That it’s got to be strangled to death? And the angels in my head say “Baby, that’s quite enough singing. Try silence instead.” But I want what I can’t have I want what I can’t have I want what I can’t have I’m done There’s a bright little light in the line of my vision It’s blocking my view and I can’t see the night The black holes in my skull dilated to crushing the irises Crowding too close to the white And there’s nothing more beautiful No, there’s nothing more beautiful And the angels in my head say “Baby, just let it go....” But I want what I can’t have I want what I can’t have I want what I can’t have... I want what I can't have I want what I can't have I want what I can't have... I’m done
2.
Caged 03:01
I heard a songbird singing on my front door step I never will forget Didn’t know nobody could whistle like that And so I caught him Made him my own little pet Built him an apartment with a view Popsicle sticks and Elmer's glue Hear the sound of silence leaving Little songbird gently singing Watch the other birds fly away Caged and broken I’m bound to stay In this hell My feathers dried and cracked from the glue I’m never singing for you Hear the sound I used to spread my wings Of silence leaving Why did you build this prison? Little song bird gently singing Why can’t you understand my desperate screaming? Oh, don’t even try to hold back I will have everything I want You’ll understand in time that you’re mine So just sing your song
3.
Crystal Eyes 04:28
Here comes another morning You've gotta figure out this restlessness soon It's just a small case of some harmless insomnia You didn't listen to the warnings She robbed you in the night While you stayed awake and watched it happen Look at your face in the mirror You thought you were a younger man Where did she go? You want her back again Just when you thought you had the world tamed Here comes a lion, eyes glowing and she's stalking you Forgot about the food chain Or did you think that you were at the top? Sweet Crystal Eyes, She lies She never really satisfies you Poor poor sad little junkie Thought you really found a love worth fighting for Here comes another night alone You wonder how you’re gonna do this on your own You hug your knees in the corner praying for a fix This cold sweat’s making you sick She’s got a lot of tricks But you need her You thought you were a stronger man You try to leave her But you just keep going back again and again Just when you thought you had the world tamed Here comes a lion, eyes glowing and she's stalking you Forgot about the food chain Or did you think that you were at the top? Sweet Crystal Eyes, She lies She never really satisfies you Poor poor sad little junkie Thought you really found a love worth fighting for Ohhhh..... “Don’t listen to them, baby.” she says “I’m all you need in this world.” Here comes a lion, eyes glowing and she's stalking you Forgot about the food chain Or did you think that you were at the top? Sweet Crystal Eyes, She lies She never really satisfies you Poor poor sad little junkie Thought you really found a love worth fighting for Sweet Crystal Eyes She’ll tie you to your demons Lock you up and watch you while you scream She’ll blow away your wildest dreams And then you’re never gonna dream again You’ll hear her voice inside your head long after she’s gone So be careful what you live for, baby ‘cause we don’t live long
4.
Raindrops 04:31
Raindrops falling in the puddle Won’t stop me running through the street You won’t find me looking for some cover My mother keeps calling from the porch She’s gonna scold me later ‘cause she knows of course Somehow I’m bound to get my feet wet She says “A cold is gonna catch you, catch you something fierce You’d better come inside, you’d better come right here.” But the raindrops falling in the puddle Won’t stop me running through the street You won’t find me looking for some cover And how many times do I have to tell you That I don’t need no stinking umbrella I’m gonna run full speed through the gutter 'til I’m soaking Because this ain’t no small spring shower it’s the real thing But a cold is gonna catch you, catch you something fierce You’d better come inside, you’d better come right here Girl a cold is gonna catch you, catch you while you sleep Babe the river is rising and the water is getting deep Hey everybody come on out and get your feet wet Send old father fear packing Come on out and make the most of it They’re gonna tell you to be careful every single day ‘cause if you don’t you’re gonna get yourself hurt, they say I’ll take the pain, the failure, and that old heartache Because life is a risk that you have to take But a cold is gonna catch you, catch you something fierce You’d better come inside, you’d better come right here___ But the raindrops falling in the puddle Won’t stop me running through the street___ But the raindrops falling in the puddle Won’t stop me running through the street You won’t find me looking for some cover My mother keeps calling from the porch She’s gonna scold me later ‘cause she knows of course Somehow I’m bound to get my feet wet
5.
Once safe behind a rib-cage My heart couldn’t be exposed To those thieves, all strategically charming You wanted what you couldn’t have Crowbar in your hand, you came Leaving no escape for me, darling Don’t distance, Don’t distance yourself Take me off of your shelf Can’t you see, can’t you see There’s no famine, no feast There’s no famine, no famine No Now it’s safe in your possession My heart Somewhere in your house Just like your keys Frantic sofa searching While the panic alarm rings But if you want the best of me Don’t strip me to the bone And just leave all the rest ‘til you’re starving Don’t distance, Don’t distance yourself Take me off of your shelf Can’t you see, can’t you see There’s no famine, no feast There’s no famine, no famine No You could be rich and happy Or hopeful and poor But you’ve only your apathy I can’t take it anymore There’s no famine, no feast There’s no famine No catch, no release There’s no famine, no feast There’s no famine, no famine No
6.
Unresolved 04:54
I said it all, I said it all I told you just how I felt And it came out like bottled vintage So refined from all the time spent on the shelf Oh... You said it all, You said it all And like an earthquake in the dark It shook me once And then some odd sort of serenity Stilled my beating heart Oh... There was no screaming No careening Oh... out of control If we had only known so very long ago How not to fall asleep unresolved I said it all... What do you mean, things need to change? Love why don’t you understand my pain? All of this time I’ve had the same blood running through my veins It’s not the same, It’s not the same, It’s not the same Why can’t you open up your eyes and see That I’ve done everything for you - What have you done for me? I’ve done everything for you - what have you done for me? I’ve done everything for you - what have you done for me? I’ve done everything for you - what have you done for me? And there was screaming Oh____ OUT OF CONTROL We should have guessed that we would never really know How not to fall asleep unresolved Is life actually going to be alright? Baby please don’t cry. Is life actually going to be alright? Everything is going to be alright. I said it all, I said it all, I said it all... Why can't you understand? I tried to give you my soul Are we ever gonna know how not to fall... Baby, are you still awake?
7.
Bitterness is a dress I don’t wear too well With the delicate lace in my face And the velvet black And porcelain skin may be so flawless and fair But it’s also breakable Submissiveness is a dress Every mirror knows the sight It’s so becoming of a well-bred woman To be gracefully gliding down the halls In satin white I found myself a needle and thread I pricked my finger and it bled Unsteady hands rending gowns to tattered shreds Fashioned me a dress Of crimson red
8.
Just a Song 04:05
I’m so guilty of replaying moments in my head And wondering what I should have done or said But that one was perfect with your hand resting on my back To calm my trembling breath Before I walked away and swore that I’d forget But I could not forget And who can I tell it to? Not you, love Not anyone No, some things are better left Just bottled in the bottom of my soul Or I could write it in a song And all the crowd will sing along And they might wonder if its written from experience or not From experience or not I only dreamed of growing up throughout my childhood But now I wish I owned the world again And everyone I know is watching closely “Is she gonna break? She’s resting on a hairpin trigger. Everything’s at stake.” But I’m so guilty of wearing my heart like a scarlet gown Sparkling in the lights for everyone to see And this undivided audience You know too much, you know too much This guitar’s gone and got the best of me And who can I tell it to? Not you, love Not anyone No, some things are better left Just bottled in the bottom of my soul Or I could write it in a song And all the crowd will sing along And they might wonder if its written from experience or not And when will this song be just a song? Oh when will this song be just a song? It’s just a song I’m so guilty of replaying moment in my head Again and again and again, love I cannot forget
9.
House of gold, this precious metal Sun don’t penetrate, no window frames built in Only me inside my prison Seeing a much grander vision of myself No doors to let you in Why would I when luxury is company enough for me Birds and clouds and airplanes flying overhead While I am lying to myself believing they are mine And I’m sure this house of gold will buy me happiness In time House of gold that sparkles in the gleam Of every lowly passer’s dream They look, but I don’t see them Filthy crowded streets can keep them House of gold as night draws nearer Dressing to impress my mirrors They adore Dinner by the fireplace I need no beggar’s warm embrace Silver stars and airplanes flying overhead While I am lying in a bed to fit ten lovers Only me beneath the covers There’s no need for useless petty thieves When luxury is company enough for me Here I rest inside my palace Void of anger, pain, or malice Void of love, an empty chalice House of gold, this precious metal Sun don’t penetrate, no window frames built in Only me inside my cell This hell that I have built myself I’ve everything I need Yes, luxury is company enough...
10.
Half Life 07:06
I went to the doctor with a question on my mind the other night, but when I asked he said “Girl, you’d better go and find someone else. I’m not a specialist of that kind.” And when the doctor couldn’t help I went to the mechanic and said “I’m broken inside.” But he said “M’am I guess I don’t understand. I’m only a man. I make machines work when I can.” When I can Then up stepped the scientist, said “Let me try at this. I specialize in answering questions when no one can explain.” So I sighed and asked him “Why do I feel this way?” He said “Emotions are just chemicals in your brain, and chemical’s decay after a moment in a test tray. And everything has a brief moment when it flourishes before it starts to die - It’s called a half-life. Now if you squint very carefully with your eye you’ll see the process by which everybody tries to survive. But the rules of science are swift and true, and nobody can undo them as hard as they try.” As hard as they try And the isotopes under the microscope Taught me everything I’ll ever need to know Except how to let go There’s a butterfly with it’s wing torn off crawling ‘round in the dirt Through the greenhouse of my thoughts And when the little girl cries to see it that way Her momma says “Butterflies only live two weeks anyway.” Her half-life came five days ago While she was in the sun making love by the window For all we know... For all we know She might have been destined to die alone There’s a sullen girl in a world apart Writing poems with a pencil on the white walls in the dark She says “I know my weapon’s just a harmless tool.” But still the brilliant fool who bound the tree to the charcoal Never knew what it would do Her half-life came about an hour ago While she was on her knees saying prayers to the radio But the song she wanted to hear did not exist And with her angry fists she couldn’t write the words to make it whole Half-life, what a lovely decay of words And all the doctors enter the room with their pills and their cures But nature takes what nature wants to keep For all we know... For all we know tonight I might just sleep
11.
Lonesome is the dreamer who stares up into the night sky And watches the face of the moon Friendly eyes are gazing back down Ears intently listen to hear the small dreamer’s sad tune "I dream of the love of a beautiful maid And of three little children to laugh and to play Hear this poor humble dreamer and please grant me this The love of a family is my only wish" The moon saw the hope in the poor dreamer’s eyes And he granted him all that he asked The dreamer rejoiced and he went on his way Five years passed and the dreamer came back "I dream of a house with a room for each child Fancy dresses and jewels for my wife Hear this poor humble dreamer And please grant me riches enough for a comfortable life" The moon saw the hope in the poor dreamer’s eyes And he granted him all that he asked The dreamer rejoiced and he went on his way Ten year passed, and the dreamer came back "Dear friend, you have granted me all that I hoped for But something’s still missing I fear I know just what I need to bring happiness Please, I have just one more prayer if you’ll hear I dream of the love of another more fair Than the woman who lies in my bed I dream of the riches of castles and kings Of a gold crown of jewels on my head And I dream, and my dreams, they are all I believe They are all that I ever have known They won’t leave me alone" Lonesome is the dreamer who stares up into the night sky And watches the face of the moon "I long for the face of that beautiful maid And those three little children, they’ve all gone away Yes, the one final wish of this foolish old man Is the same as the first when my dreaming began"

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released August 20, 2013

All songs written by Callie Moore except:
“Caged” written by Callie Moore and Austin Cross
Performed by My Fair Fiend

Callie Moore - Guitar, ukulele, vocals
Austin Cross - Lead guitar, Piano on “Crystal Eyes”, vocals on “Caged”
Zac Bryant - Drums, vocals on “Unresolved”, background vocals
Adam Crofts - Bass

Recorded at Annex Recording in Draper, Utah
Produced by Callie Moore and Giles Reaves
Recorded, mixed, and mastered by Giles Reaves
Additional keys, percussion, and soundscapes by Giles Reaves

Album design by Callie Moore
Photography by Zac Bryant

Special thanks to:
Giles and Annex Recording, Adam and Vince, Michael Sullivan, Michael Baldwin, Lucas Pencak, all of our families, friends, and the fans that made this album possible.

Copyright 2013 Callie Moore

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My Fair Fiend Utah

With haunting vocal melodies floating over instrumental syncopation that dances playfully then diverges into discordant rock, My Fair Fiend displays a kind of intense fragility that is uniquely theirs.
My Fair Fiend was founded in 2013 in Orem, Utah by Callie Crofts (lead vocals/guitar/songwriting) and Zac Bryant (Drums).
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